Great to hear from you, Rose. It sounds like you’re headed in the right direction.
When I was your age I interviewed a lot of adults in the 50s and 60s and asked them about what it was like for them in their 20s and 30s. The details were all different but the themes were the same — a nervous anticipation about how their life will unfold.
I think the only way that changes is you get older.
Unrelated: I have to ask, why email metrics are you using??